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An Honest Confession

2012-01-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

Tonight, I was stalking your profile. I don't know why, but I guessed, I just wanted to browse your pictures, read the comments, and I don't know. And of course, from my best friend account.

You, I've been hating you for years. Why? Because you have everything. I am envious. You stole my love for the first time. I always wish, that, I am the first girl he met. You don't have to do anything. But, I have to sacrificed everything to win his heart. Even my own feelings.

I tried to understand, at first. Yes, as a human being. I tried not to hate you. I even hate this 'hatred' feeling. I don't do hate people. When people around me started to compare between you and me, I know, I'm not like you. I'm not pretty as you, not brilliant as you, not perfect like you. Either way, you'll always win.

For other things that I don't have to tell here, makes me hate you more!

But, tonight, I realised, this hatred feeling is tiring. Effing tiring me. I feel like a fool dealing with this insecurity thing. Always feel worried. The 'you are going to take him from me' is the scariest thing, I can't imagine it would happen. Sigh.

I don't want to hate you. I want to learn not to hate you anymore. It is an honest confession from me.

I've been trying all these 3 years proving my love. He's the one who makes me both the happiest and saddest person. He's my love life. Now, I don't care about you, about anything else. I leave it to him to decide whether I'm worth to be loved, or not.

Sigh.

I Miss You :'(

2012-01-26T21:30:00.001+08:00

I miss you baby. I want to see you :(

2012-01-19T20:35:00.002+08:00

where did I go wrong? why you doing this to me? apa salah saya? kenapa layanan pada saya dah tak sama? saya rindu awak. terlalu lama saya tunggu awak. tapi keadaan jadi sebaliknya. apa salah saya? :(

3 Months

2012-01-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

I haven't seen you for 3 months, 8th Jan 2012

Dear you,

I am sorry. I know I did you wrong the other night. Very wrong. I should have change my (this) bad attitude long ago. I know I have made a lot of promises, but still I hurted you so many times. I am sorry :(

I love you, and yes I miss you so bad. I can't wait to see you, and I just ruined everything. I don't know what has happened to me my emotions controlled my actions. All I know I was desperately need you and the asthma attacked me and my flu fever gave me worst headache ever.

I annoyed you, I forced you to take me out, I was mad at you for a childish reason.

Please, forgive me. I am regret it now. I supposed to be a very good girl for you, but I guess I just destroyed it. You gave me so much and I should be grateful. I just forgot the main intention I have made one time ago," if you want to come back to me, I would do everything I could and I won't ask anything from you. As long as you will be here with me." But look what I've done.

I deserved to being ignored. But please, forgive me and please don't leave me :(

If I have to lose you again, I will die.

I love you, A

Hey,

2012-01-01T14:34:00.002+08:00

I love you :)

2012-01-01T14:29:00.000+08:00

" The point is that, you will wait for that person so much that no matter what people say, your heart still beats for that person. And even if they're not there, time will "

" It's about loving someone before you know them and when you find them you know you'll love them forever :) "

The bitter-sweet of 2011

2011-12-29T19:08:00.000+08:00

The sweet’s

1. The best-friend-ever, Wahida Farahana, get married on 1st January, 2011.

2. My prayer has been answered. I’m so grateful. Worth the wait. Thanks baby!

3. I got myself a Blackberry!

4. First time being on a plane! One of my 2011-wish-list. A LOOOOT of thanks to baby for such a wonderful birthday gift J

5. Also, my first time abroad!

6. Graduation Day.

7. Second time being on a plane. Went to Sabah ; for a family vacation.

8. My lil brother came home from Aussie.

The bitter

1. The asthma is getting worst.

2. Got injection on my back.

3. There’s one guy. Sigh.

4. Financial problem.

5. Family problem.

6. Awaaaaaaay from baby. We often fight cause of jealousy, whenever I miss him, and whenever I started thinking those bad things.

7. Yes, the bad thoughts. Sigh

8. I have lost my closest boy-friend.

The lessons.

1. Let’s pray. Allah listens no matter what.

2. I’ve learn that we need a very very very high level of patience to understand some people.

3. Learn to forgive and forget.

4. Everyone deserved chances.

5. Patience is bitter. But the fruit is sweet.

6. Must be grateful. Yes, I am.

7. Have faith.

What I want in 2012 :

1. May ALLAH bestow me a lot of sustenance and gives all my family, my friends, and my baby undivided happiness.

Because 'everyday is special'

2011-12-23T17:35:00.001+08:00

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid

To fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt

Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday

waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty I know she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything

Take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath,

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday
Waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

This is for you, my love :)

Re-Blogged From Hasnol's

2011-12-22T12:05:00.002+08:00

Selepas beliau menonton filem Ombak Rindu.

Hasnol's : Ombak Rindu

*sila klik tulisan merah

Why?

2011-12-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

Anniversary, why we need that?

Call me old-fashioned, call me 'influenced by those love's novels', call me anything. I'm still a girl who want to have an anniversary date for ours like everyone else. Why can't I have that?

Why we need that?

This anniversary day, where we sit together, holding hands and say how we appericiate our relationship. We appreciate each other. What we have done, what we have sacrifice for ours. This day, where I'm gonna ask you to forgive my flaw. Where I'm gonna promise to be a better for you, for our future. This day, where we realise how far this relationship has go. How we survived through thick and thin together. Where our mistakes has grow us up. This day, where I'm going to say a lot of words explains how much I love you. How much I need you. Also, how much grateful I am to have a such wonderful person like, you.

Is these too much?

Miracle :)

2011-12-05T23:39:00.001+08:00

Too many things that made me happy today. I even cried happily. Thank you Allah for all the blessings you gave to me. To us. Alhamdulillah..

Actually, today is a happy day for us. And I never thought I would get one more good news tonight. Yes I am happy. I am so happy. I pray that this joy will always coming into our lives, honey. Amin.. :)

InsyaAllah, I promise, I will always be beside you, love

♥

2011-12-04T19:16:00.001+08:00

Saya suka entri dari Hasnol Jafaar yang ini : Proses Urbanisasi

*klik tulisan merah

2011-12-03T19:39:00.001+08:00

Promote blog ini? Oh tidak. Tak perlu. Saya tak perlukan promosi orang untuk baca blog saya. Cukuplah rakan terdekat dan sesiapa yang bertuah sahaja dapat baca. Kalau saya nak blog saya famous, saya dah promote sejak tahun 2008 lagi. Terima kasih :)

Have you ever considered my feeling, honey?

2011-11-30T22:59:00.001+08:00

'' Hari-hari kan, macam budak keciklah u ni''

This sentence was uttered several times. How does it felt by the way? Yes, it hurts baby. Until now.

There's too much of your words, your actions, that I can't explain yet I always have this thought ''You don't love me''. I will cry, I will put all the blame to myself. I was scared. You drove me crazy. Been thinking I am going to lose you. You can always say the ''bad thoughts'' seems haunting me all the time. You can mad at me. Being very upset. Ignore me. But, I don't want to lose you. I've lost you before. Read it again. I've lost you before.

I can accept all your flaws. I can learn how to adapt to your way. I can do everything!

Every time when all the ''bad thoughts'' comes around, plus with your hurtful words, I will persuade myself. I will read again your sweetness texts cause I want those belief that I have, return back, and I will realize you always love me. I can pretend my feelings as long as I can talk to you.

I miss you. I miss how you need me all the time, how you miss me all nights, how you treat me. Is it a fault when I want it back?

And every time I wanted to be away from you, I could not. I was scared you'll leave me. I can't live without you. And, this fear always coming when one day I found something, something that can change your heart anytime any moment. I am scared.

I should be grateful. I have made a promise to myself, at the time you came and saved my life, I promised I don't want anything from you, whatever you want I won't say no, as long as you will be here for me. And I am thankful for all the things you did. I appreciated that darling. You never know how I appreciated that.

I want you to know, I was doing this bad attitude because I am scared. I want you to understand this only damn thing. I am scared. I'm always feeling scared of losing you.

I know, tomorrow I will regret for posting this. I want to talk about this long time ago, but I always ended up with "never mind''. Once again, cause I was scared, I didn't want your heart changes.

I am sorry. I know I was sorry for thousand times but I can't help myself. I am suck in writing, in everything. I don't know how to explain myself. Especially to you. My self-confidence seems faded.

I need to learn how to trust you. I want to trust you. I really want to.

I love you so much. And, no one can replace you. No one.

I have a problem

2011-11-29T23:06:00.001+08:00

I can't go a day without you.

I can't live without you.

My life is just incomplete, me is insane,

I will do anything for that.

This is irritating.

I hate how much I love you,

2011-11-28T23:09:00.004+08:00

RT @kyuppyquotes: Being loved by you is never enough.#kyuppyquotes™

RT @JustWannaSayIt: Thank you for staying with me. I know that I'm not always fun to be with but just know that I'm grateful. #JWSI

For you, love :)

Buruk

2011-11-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

Adakah prinsip " tidak komplen, banyak berterima kasih " sedang memakan diri saya?

QOTD

2011-11-25T13:43:00.004+08:00

p/s : because I ♥ you :)

2011-11-25T01:13:00.000+08:00

"bercinta dengan kamu, buat aku tahu, walaupun kamu tidak mencintaiku seperti yang aku mahu, tidak semestinya kamu tidak mencintaiku sepenuh hatimu"

Sebab Rindu

2011-11-25T00:55:00.003+08:00

The loneliness of nights so long

The search for strength to carry on

My every hope had seemed to die

My eyes had no more tears to cry

Then like the sun shined from up above

You surrounded me with your endless love

And all the things I couldn't see

Are now so clear to me

You are my everything

Nothing your love won't bring

My life is yours alone

The only love I've ever known

Your spirit pulls me through

When nothing else will do

Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams

Are suddenly reality

You've opened up my heart to feel

The kind of love that's truly real

A guiding light that'll never fade

There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade

For the love you give and won't let go

I hope you'll always know

You're the breath of life in me

The only one that sets me free

And you have made my soul complete

For all time

You are my everything :) *click here

The Dangers of Poor Sleep

2011-11-21T11:50:00.003+08:00

Sleep disorders are conditions that affect how much and how well you sleep. The causes range from poor habits that keep you awake to medical problems that disrupt your sleep cycle. If you don’t feel rested in the mornings, see your doctor. Insufficient sleep is a serious problem that poses a threat to your health and safety.

Lack of sleep can take a toll on nearly every aspect of daily life. Research has linked sleep deprivation to car accidents, relationship troubles, poor job performance, job-related injuries, memory problems, and mood disorders. Recent studies also suggest sleep disorders may contribute to heart disease, obesity, and diabetes.

Symptoms vary depending on the type of sleep disorder but may include:

* Excessive sleepiness during the day

* Trouble falling asleep or staying asleep

* Snoring or episodes of stopped breathing during sleep

* Urge to move your legs at rest or an uncomfortable feeling in the legs at night

How much sleep is enough?

Sleep needs vary widely from person to person, but general guidelines are:

* 16 hours for infants

* 9 hours for teenagers

* 7-8 hours for adults

Keep in mind that some adults do fine with 5 hours of sleep and others need as many as 10 hours per night.

This explains my chest pains every night, besides my asthma- Me

Ini cerita keluarga

2011-10-29T17:02:00.002+08:00

Tau apa cerita tentang keluarga?

Ini ada suatu kisah, dimana seorang perempuan, sebagai seorang isteri, seorang menantu, seorang anak dan seorang ibu. Sifat apakah yang diterima akal manusia sebagai isteri yang enggan menyediakan makan , minum dan pakai suaminya? Jenis menantu yg bagaimanakah membebankan mertua yg sudah lanjut usia untuk bekerja dan memberi anak-anaknya makan dan engkau bersenang-lenang? Dan adakah seorang ibu yang sampai hatinya memukul anak-anak hanya untuk melepaskan amarah pada yang dewasa? Mana hati lembut engkau membiarkan ibu dan bapa di ruang tamu, bertilamkan lantai, berbantalkan lengan dan engkau dalam bilik tidur berkatil berbantal dan berhawa dingin?

Dan sebagai seorang perempuan, mengapa bisanya mengalahkan sembilu menjadi jarum dan mencuba memecah-belahkan keluarga?

Masih, kau disitu tersengih-sengih melihat keruntuhan satu persatu. Hati manusia kah hati binatang kah?

Aku, juga seorang perempuan, belum menjadi isteri, ibu dan menantu. Tapi kisah engkau perempuan tidak akan aku catatkan dalam sejarah masa depan aku.

Hati

2011-10-29T16:59:00.001+08:00

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Cerita lalu di antara engkau dan aku
Dua hati ini pernah percaya
Seribu mimpi tanpa ragu tanpa curiga

Ku tak ingin lagi
Menunggu, menanti
Harapan tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati

Ku tak ingin coba
Hanya tuk kecewa (Ku telah kecewa)
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara
Aku ingin pergi
Dan berganti hati

Satu persatu telah ku hapus
Nada dan lagu yang dulu ku cipta untukmu
Rasa yang dulu pernah ada
Kini berdebu terbelenggu dusta dan noda

Wish you were here :(

2011-10-23T22:51:00.001+08:00

2011-08-28T10:54:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2011 dan Maaf Zahir dan Batin,
ikhlas dari,
Naz Nadhira bt M Rosli
:)

I'm Bacccckkkkkkkkkk

2011-08-18T16:15:00.001+08:00

Proudly to pronounce you Supernadyra is back!

2011-03-27T12:34:00.002+08:00

Semalam beria-ia nak sign in blog ni untuk maki seorang manusia. Tapi hari ni bila dah nampak dah cinta buat kita lupa dan cinta buat kita buta, apa lagi yang perlu aku maki kan? Malas dah. Tak berguna nak bising-bising pasal orang yang takde kena mengena dengan kehidupan aku. Tapi sebab kau dah masuk hal peribadi aku, apehal? Kau tahu kisah hidup aku? Kau dah kenal aku bertahun-tahun? Kita pernah jadi kawan baik?

Babi.

Sudahlah, cinta tak perlukan syarat. Tuhan akan tunjuk semuanya.

YOU

2011-03-22T14:43:00.002+08:00

Re-blog from Shahida Harun

Hanya Dikau

2011-03-19T21:46:00.003+08:00

Hanya dikau, dalam hati..
Hanya dikau, dalam mimpi..
Aku ingin terus bersamamu
Walau harus tempuh angin lalu

Hanya dikau dan hanya dikau saja ♥

Petikan lagu dari filem Anak Halal

It has been a year

2011-03-16T19:42:00.001+08:00

This 365 days, this is the first time I feel happiness. This time I felt that God had heard my prayer. And this happiness is the proof that my love is sincere, honest and pure. Thank you Lord. Thank you for giving me a second chance.

I bet my life and my world on it. God bless us :)

2011-03-14T04:01:00.002+08:00

Mengingat bayang mu yang jauh
Pada waktu yang kian sempit
Dadaku nyaris terbelah
Perih melolong sengit
Rinduku membuncah
Merobek langit

Titipan puisi rindu
Pada nyanyi angin sendu
Agar hati tak kian pilu
Berharap kau pun rindu

Aku sudah nyaris gila.

:)

9th March, 4:56 a.m.

2011-03-09T04:51:00.001+08:00

I'm through the tough time now. And i have no you, to turn to. If you ever wondering, yes, I miss you. I miss you.

Kecewa.

2011-03-07T19:24:00.004+08:00

Sebetulnya, entri ini untuk meluahkan betapa kecewa melanda apabila 1 kenyataan telah diketahui. Kecewa yang amat pedih percayalah mana-mana manusia yang punya hati pun akan merasakan hal yang sama. Tapi, selepas terbaca kembali entri sebelum ini, buat diri tersedar kembali. Marah tak kemana. Lupakan dan maafkan sahaja. Cukup.

Bila 1 dosa telah menutup 1000 pahala

2011-03-06T16:24:00.002+08:00

Wajarkah menghukum seorang manusia hanya kerana 1 dosa yang dilakukan? Adilkah untuk tidak memaafkan dan tidak akan melupakan khilaf yang tercipta? Bagaimana pahala yang dilakukan selama ini? Sudah tidak berhargakah?

Sudah dasarnya manusia, tidak pernah sempurna. Walau kebaikannya melimpah ruah, 1 kesilapan memalit pahalanya ke tong sampah. Sudah dilupakan. Apa kau malaikat? Damaikah hati dengan dendam? Apakah berat untuk memaafkan? Bukankah bermaafan itu juga 1 pahala?

Ini warkah untuk diri penulis juga. Sekian.

This is for you, who will fly away today

2011-02-28T14:17:00.003+08:00

Takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.

Takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare

.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.

takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.takecare.

You will always be accompanied by prayers from me. I will wait until you come back. God bless you my dear.

p/s : Take a good care, I'm gonna miss you ♥

Dream.

2011-02-26T17:45:00.003+08:00

I got a strange dream last night. I was married. My husband, the man that I never knew in real life. In the dream, I was giving birth. A son. My son does not have a face like my husband, but he has a face like me and him. His round eyes like me, lips, nose and facial features of my child like him. His smile, very much like him. I was shocked and tiredly thinking, was it true that the man I do not know, was my husband or I cheat? And many other possibilities. However, the most weird thing with the dream was, I was feeling real good. Having children who resemble the face of the man I love, yes I want it. I was happy until get carried away to real life. And I can not stop thinking about it.

This dream reminded me of my entry last 2 years.

p/s : Do not worry, it was just a dream. A wonderful dream.

Engkau Menggoda!

2011-02-22T20:07:00.005+08:00

Datanglah ke alam realitiku. Kan ku seru namamu di setiap hujung doa ku.

The Golf GTI (klik sini!)

Dia Dah Terbang Dah!

2011-02-20T18:31:00.005+08:00

Kakak wish you good luck! Bila dah kaya nanti belikan kakak VW Golf GTI ok? Thanks ♥
p/s Tak perlu rindu dia, winter break dia balik. :D

14022011

2011-02-14T22:22:00.003+08:00

Several weird things happened to me lately. But these kind of things have really made my day :)

Happy 6th years anniversary to all Technical School student ( batch 2005-2006 ) and this is specially dedicated for you, ex-students SM Teknik Kuala Selangor. Friendship ain't end ♥

Because I Love You

2011-02-12T11:45:00.003+08:00

Because I love you
That's the reason why
'Cause I love you
I'll reach up to the sky
Pull down a fairytale, a wishing well, a magic spell
And give them all to you

Because I love you
All I ever think about is
When I can touch you
'Cause I can't live without
Your little sweet surprise, your hazel eyes, your lips, your hair, I'm hypnotized
And there's nothing I can do

Because I love you
I'll always be honestly, willingly, faithful and true
Because I love you
I'm hopelessly, endlessly
Yours, heart and soulfully
And I devotedly
And you still go far away, but still giving so much reason to not leave you
Because I love you

Because I need you
Though you still go away
Because I want you
Every night and every day
Your little mystery, keeps kissing me, I'm history
And there's nothing I can do
Because I love you

A part of me will always be with you

p/s : Fahmi Fahmi Fahmi.

Akibat Malam Yang Panas

2011-02-09T16:22:00.002+08:00

Akibat malam tadi agak hangat suasananya, jam 2 pagi saya bangun dan membawa selimut dan bantal saya untuk tidur di ruang tamu. Walaupun ada rasa-rasa takut dengan bunyi-bunyi yang tak berapa best untuk didengar, tegar juga asalkan nyaman waktu tidur saya. Sampai 530 pagi jugalah. Pindah balik masuk bilik sebab dah subuh kannnn cuaca pun makin sejuk.

Point penting untuk post ni hanya nak cerita, saya sakit belakang lepas tidur atas lantai beberapa jam. Menderita seharian ni tau. Ni semua Shahida punya pasal. T_T

Penamat Yang Diidamkan

2011-02-08T14:01:00.002+08:00

Sejujurnya saya tidak peduli lagi. Pegi mampos bahasa kasarnya. Puas saya berbahasa indah kerana saya terkenal dengan sifat tersangat menjaga hati. Tapi ini sudah melampau! Mungkin bahasa indah saya sangat indah sampai tak faham-faham bahasa. Selalu sangat end up dengan sakit hati.

" Berapa kali mahu aku bilang padamu neng, aku tidak mahu, tidak mahu lah. "

Penat tau. Bila mula buat drama, orang sekeliling memandang saya seperti baru lepas bunuh orang. Perasaan ini tidak masuk akal. Faham tak? Sejak ia bermula, sudah ditekankan dengan paku tekan, saya tidak mahu. Pergaulan bebas juga dicemburui, eh suka hati lah. Dan bila mula melibatkan keluarga, inilah yang saya katakan, ia sudah melampau!

Persahabatan yang kita corak ini cantik. Tidak semena-mena dijatuhkan air hitam. Habis rosak. Siapa yang rosakkan? Tanya pada diri sendiri. Bukan tidak pernah saya membersihkan kembali, tapi setiap kali mesti nak kotor dan rosakkan. Apa ni??

Ini sahaja cara untuk mencipta penamat yang diidam-idamkan. Saya dah bosan! Bosan dengan drama, kata-kata, pandangan orang. Saya penat dan tak mahu lagi ia menjadi beban. Beban tau tak? Jangan wujud lagi dalam realiti hidup saya. Elok-elok ianya cantik, rosak sedikit cuba baiki, tapi sekarang habis koyak rabak. Dicantumkan pun pasti ada cacatnya. Sudahlah. Anggap kita tidak pernah mengenali antara satu sama lain. Tamatnya disini.

Maaf.

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Perpisahan Ini

2011-02-08T13:23:00.003+08:00

Tiada satu hari pun aku terlepas dari memikirkanmu :)

2011-02-07T14:20:00.000+08:00

Kau yang paksa aku jadi begini. Thanks.

2011-02-01T04:16:00.002+08:00

Hati masih merindu sedih, walau hujan berapi membakar di bumi hati.

How To Prevent SH?

2011-01-31T10:12:00.003+08:00

SH is Sexual Harassment.

When it comes to the person who whispers unwanted sweet nothings into your ear, touches you in an inappropriate manner, or tosses a comment about how “sexy” you look in your new threads, many people are reluctant to admit they have been a victim of sexual harassment. The unwelcome attention that delivers even the slightest hint of sexuality is considered harassment. It doesn’t matter if it shows through as “innocent” flirting, mild annoyances, or a serious breach of manners, sexual harassment is a very real problem that affects both men and women and can take place within any setting.

What is Sexual Harassment?

Pure and simple, sexual harassment is unwanted attention that comes in the form of verbalizations; written and visual communication; or physical contact and actions. Usually, sexual harassment is an act that is often associated with the workplace and educational circles, where people are in constant contact with the opposite sex. Yet, sexual harassment can take place anywhere ; at the grocery store, the doctor’s office, in the mall, and even stuck in traffic.

Each sexual harassment case is different and may involve a variety of circumstances. The harasser doesn't necessarily have to be a person the harassed knows. It could be a stranger on the street or someone who works at a local establishment. Often, sexual harassment comes from supervisors, clients, teachers, students, co-workers, and even family and friends. The victim of unwanted sexual advances can be male or female, just as the harasser can be the same. Contrary to popular belief, the harasser does not always have to be of the opposite sex.

In many cases, the harasser is actually unaware that his or her actions are offensive and falls under the category of sexual harassment , they may feel their behavior constitutes as flirting, being friendly, or just their way of being “funny.” Many harassers are completely ignorant to the fact that some of the things they say or do could be considered unlawful or illegal. Overall, in order to deem the actions or behavior of an individual as harassment, the receipt of such attention must be unwelcome

There are many cases of sexual harassment that take place because some individuals are unaware that they are displaying unacceptable behavior. Those who continue to sexually harass an individual often perceive the situation as something they are able to “get away with” and do not count on the victim taking action.

Many harassers are also not familiar with the rules, regulations, and laws regarding unwanted sexual attention, which aim to protect the rights of victims. To date, many work environments, higher learning institutions, and even a few states are cracking down on the issue of sexual harassment by implementing mandatory policies. Other prevention measures include:

a) Avoid Unacceptable Behavior:

The best way to prevent sexual harassment is to avoid the behaviors considered inappropriate within the workplace, classroom, behind closed doors, and in public. This includes telling offensive jokes of a sexual nature; inappropriate touching (rubbing shoulders, squeezing body parts, forcing hugs); making comments on body parts; questioning or discussing sexual activities and habits; posting sexually suggestive images; sending explicit emails; making indecent gestures; using inappropriate name-calling or creating pet names; and using crude language.

b) Pass Out Informative Booklets:

Today, there are many informational booklets that help employees and employers that educate on the issues of sexual harassment. A popular and best-selling training booklet on the market is called, “How to Recognize and Prevent Sexual Harassment in the Workplace.” Pamphlets on the topic usually defines sexual harassment, gives easy-to-understand examples, illustrates scenarios, provides statistics, and suggests ways on preventing lawsuits and claims. The rights and responsibilities of both employees and employers are also explained, as well as ways on how to correct minor problems within the workplace.

c) Awareness Courses and Training:

Cautious employers incorporate sexual harassment awareness courses and training into usual workplace education. This helps employers prevent conflict within the office or company, especially the kind that ends in legal action. An Assembly Bill signed in 2004 by Governor Arnold Schwarzenegger made this sort of training mandatory in California [9]. This type of training may occur both on- and offsite, and is no way the sole method of prevention that a workplace should rely on.

d) Post Sexual Harassment Policies:

To make sure sexual harassment policies aren’t forgotten, it is important to post policies in clear view as a daily reminder.

e) Pre-Counseling:

When sexual harassment has been viewed or suspected, it is important to counsel offenses, even when formal complaints are not filed. This helps to prevent further harassment and possibly end problems before they start.

f) Set a Good Example:

Preventing inappropriate behavior in the workplace begins with the higher-ups executives, supervisors, and bosses are expected to set a good example and especially abide by the rules.

g) Immediate Attention to Complaints:

To prevent behavior problems in the workplace that includes sexual harassment concerns, it is important to immediately react and respond to any complaints. A complete and thorough investigation should take place in order to set an example and correct any current problems.

p/s : I respect you as a person of high rank and has the power to thwart me at any time. But please do not let it turn to hate. Because I started to hate you.

Resources from : howtoprevent.com

Biasa

2011-01-16T23:06:00.001+08:00

Aku mengenali kau hampir tahun kedua. Kau biasa sahaja di mata. Tetapi di sana ramai perempuan yang tergilakan kau. Kita biasa duduk minum bersama. Dan kau hanya kawan biasa.

Masa cepat pergi, dan manusia di keliling aku juga cepat benar berubah. Aku juga terkena tempiasnya. Kau masih ada. Masih seperti biasa. Cuma kau sudah berkereta.

Suatu malam, kita keluar berdua. Kita berbual di dalam kereta tentang perubahan hidup. Tentang kau, tentang aku. Kau tahu cerita pedihku, aku tahu cerita manismu. Entah kenapa aku rasa gembira. Gembira kerana kau masih seperti biasa.

Semenjak itu, kita biasa kembali bersama. kau luangkan masa mendengar cerita bodoh ku, cerita sakit ku. Ajaibnya, kau mendengar teliti dan memberi jawapan dan kata-kata yang aku tunggu. Kau memahami setiap butir maksud ku, kau ketawa mendengar aku bercerita masa bahagia ku. kau percaya apa yang aku kata, dan kau nampak apa yang aku lihat. Kau masih seperti biasa melakukan jenaka tak masuk akal buat aku ketawa tak ingat dunia.

Tiba saat gentingku, tangis aku , kau masih biasa ada dengan aku. Kau seorang lihat derita rindu ku. Kau seorang lihat mata aku yang bersinar setiap dia menjadi cerita ku. Kau seorang yang menyelam ke dasar dan faham mengapa aku bertindak begitu. Hanya kau seorang.

Segala budi tak mampu aku balasi dengan kekayaan dunia. Hanya Tuhan akan menentukannya. Jika kau berjantina sama, sudah aku peluk cium dan wajib setiap malam kau tidur sebelah aku.

Cuma, kau mula berkata tentang hidup berkeluarga. Sudah penat enjoy katanya. Aku tumpang gembira. Sedih kerana mungkin kawan biasa seperti kau, sudah tiada. Kau hanya manusia biasa, tetapi di mataku, kau istimewa.

Kau Faham Tak?

2011-01-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

Kau ingat kau tu sempurna sangat? Kau ingat kau tu terbaik? Mana ada. Dahlah kau tu pelupa. Entah apa yang kau ingat dalam kepala kau tu. Semua kau lupa lepas tu salahkan aku tak bagitau. Sebenarnya kau tu yang pelupa. Nombor telefon sendiri pun kau tak ingat. Kalau biasanya orang rimas dengan perempuan yang suka membebel, kau ni spesies apa pun aku tak tau, lelaki yang suka bising dan membebel. Membebel-bebel tak berhenti sampai salah masuk kedai makan pun kau tak sedar. Kau tu dahlah suka banyak tanya. Tanya soalan-soalan yang orang tak tau nak jawab. Penakut pun kau jugak. Kau takut dengan lipas, tapi aku tak pun. Bila aku sakit, kau bising aku tak makan ubat, tak makan nasik, minum ais, tapi bila kau batuk? Kau merokok jugak. Aku tegur kau, kau bagi alasan. Kau tau membebel tapi bila aku mintak tolong kau betulkan tombol pintu yang rosak, kau kata kau tak tau. Apa yang kau tau? Bila kau tengok perempuan cantik, aku ada kat sebelah pun kau tak kisah, tapi aku sendiri pun tak kisah. Bila aku yang kata lelaki tu ‘not bad’, kau cemburu, kau kata kau buat boleh, aku buat tak boleh. Teknologi pun kau buta. Aku tinggalkan note banyak-banyak dalam handset kau pun, kau tak tau nak baca. Bila football club kau kalah, kau warning aku jangan cakap apa-apa, tapi bila time kau dah menang, kau menjerit tak kira masa. Time kau penat mengantuk, orang cakap apa pun kau tak peduli. Tapi bila kau dah habis tidur puas, kau paksa semua orang layan kau. Kebongokan kau tu berganda-ganda, terlalu panjang untuk disenaraikan. Lepas kau, kau, lepas kau, kau lagi. Semua kau. Tapi masalahnya, kelemahan-kelemahan ini buat aku jatuh cinta. Kelemahan kau buat aku sentiasa gelak ketawa. Disebabkan kelemahan-kelemahan ini jugalah buat aku selalu senyum macam orang gila sorang-sorang. Kau tu bongok, kau begitu buat aku rindu. Bongok, kau faham tak?

Drowning

2011-01-13T21:29:00.003+08:00

This is my wishful thinking, and my mindless dreaming

" If God let me to live my life again, I want us to be in love and I swear I love you right this time"

Too bad, God just let us to live one time only.

Yes I Would Die For You

2011-01-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

Sekalipun jika diberikan satu pelukan cium mesra rindu yang membuak. Tuhan tarik nyawa aku sudah rela malah meminta. Kerana sendiri hati tahu ia tidak puas akan terus merayu-rayu lagi.

2011 Plan

2011-01-02T19:49:00.006+08:00

Pertama sekali, boleh tak nak tindik hidung? Sakit tak? Cantik, tapi saya takut. :D

Kedua, saya nak belajar berenang. Cemburu tengok budak-budak kecil cilik dah boleh buat aksi-aksi di kolam renang, mandi laut dan juga sungai. Saya? Dah 22 tahun dah tak reti-reti lagi.

Ketiga, saya ingat selepas tamatnya diploma nanti, saya nak sangat sambung belajar ke peringkat ijazah pula. Saya rindu nak buat assignment dengan kawan-kawan, nak pergi kelas, nak pakai kad matrik pelajar, nak bergelar pelajar. Tapi, mungkin saya tiada rezeki :(

Keempat, bila dah tak dapat sambung belajar, faham-faham sendiri lah saya perlu bekerja. Cuma, saya belum pasti saya nak kerja di hospital atau tempat lain.

Kelima, bila dah kerja, mesti nanti saya banyak duit, jadi kawan-kawan, tahun baru yang akan datang kita naik kapal terbang pula tau! :)

p/s : Kita hanya merancang :)

2010 to 2011

2010-12-31T12:44:00.002+08:00

New year 2011 is gets closer within few hours. Yes, time passes quickly, and I am still here, stood faithfully.

In 2011, still, you have my heart. Throughout the year, throughout life. While I was still allowed to live on earth, god, my pray for your life and love has always accompanied you. No matter in what will be the year we celebrate.

Too many things changed. And I still live with myself in the wonderful memories. I'm happy to see you happy.

This message has been in my phone's storage for more than two weeks before the New Year. I do not have the guts to give it to you. I'm sorry.

“It should be our second year anniversary, 1st of January; I was just read back your 1st anniversary wishes. Our first kiss, our first hug, our first date, our first day and night together, our first laugh, our first cried. Our love that was ours. That will be remains in my heart. Happy new year"

All I can do is let you go. I love you.

Happy New Year, everyone. Cherish what you have before it gone. God bless us.

Believe that, the tears will be pouring in New Year's eve.

Bukan Seperti Selalu

2010-12-29T18:54:00.003+08:00

Terguris betul perasaan saya hari ini. Entah mengapa, seperti hari-hari sebelumnya tidak pun saya mengeluh walaupun jalanraya jammed lebih-lebih lagi tibanya Jumaat, tetapi tidak petang ini, segala perkataan berdosa berlumba-lumba keluar dari mulut yang sudah luka-luka tak sedar diri mungkin ia adalah balasan dari Tuhan kerana jari-jemari ini ketagih menarik-narik kulit yang menggelupas. Badan yang mula-mula sakit seperti selama ini beradu di atas lantai buat cepat benar rasa keletihan. Tambah bijak lagi, telefon sudah kehabisan bateri kerana kemalasan yang melampau untuk caj semula malam semalam. Dan jika terjadinya sesuatu, bagaimana? Tidak sedikit pun diri, otak dan hati ini mengambil iktibar dengan cerita-cerita kurang enak yang sentiasa asyik keluar di dada-dada akhbar. Kesempatan menempuhi kesesakan mesin-mesin buatan manusia yang bergerak menggunakan petrol ini, saya berfikir, atau lebih tepat, berangan, kalau saya menjadi seorang jurutera jalanraya dan lalu-lintas, sudah tentu saya membina jalan untuk saya seorang. Tiada lampu isyarat, jalan yang sesak dan semestinya tiada pemandu-pemandu yang ajarannya kurang sedikit. Mak, kenapa tak bagi kakak sambung kejuruteraan dulu? Haihh..

Dah. Jom tengok bola*.

*Malam ini, jam 8, adalah perlawanan kedua akhir untuk Malaysia dan Indonesia. Malaysia mendahului 3-0 di perlawanan pertama pada 26hb Disember yang lalu.

Jatuh Hati

2010-12-28T18:02:00.005+08:00

Susahnya hati bila sudah mula terjatuh. Rambutnya, wajahnya, senyumnya, fizikalnya. Dia buat saya ketagih melihatnya setiap hari. Melihat dia setiap pagi. Terpaku tidak mengaku masih ada seperti dia. Teguran dia buat saya seperti berada di dunia berbeza. Dunia kami berdua. Barulah saya memahami, perasaan mereka yang mengalami cinta bukan pada usia. Sayangnya, saya bukan setakat bermimpi di siang hari, malah di tengahari, di petang, dan juga malam hari.

*Didedikasikan khas untuk Dr Ozlan Izma, Spine Surgeon & Orthopedic Specialist di Hospital Pusrawi.

Hanya Mampu

2010-12-25T22:28:00.004+08:00

Kamu tanya padaku, seindah apakah cinta,

Bulan tak mampu menjelaskannya,apatah bintang bertaburan yang mewakili cinta,

Diriasnya bumi dan ombak di telaga,

Dengan cahaya perak purnama,

Belum cukup menyebutnya syurga

Kamu tanya padaku seputih apakah cinta

Melati hanya tertunduk tanpa kata

Kelopak-kelopak mungilnya hanya mampu mengabdi di lekuk tubuhmu

Menyengatkan wangi pada peluk ciummu

Kamu tanya padaku sedalam apakah cinta

Tujuh lautan tak berani beri jawapan

Hanya dengan terjun di palung hatiku

Kamu akan tahu betapa kedalaman mana pun kamu jelajahi

Hatiku berhiaskan nama indahmu

Betapa langkahku seribu dan jauh sudah kamu pergi

Hatiku setia mencintai kamu

Credit To Ferdaus :)

2010-12-13T19:15:00.002+08:00

While waiting Wahieda finished her mammogram :)

Attention please.

2010-12-07T19:21:00.000+08:00

Sorry from the bottom of my heart for all my friends, and all the people I really care about. All kinds of social sites like Facebook, Twitter, MySpace, and Friendster was I deactivate. I can not say why here and probably those who close to me, understand why. Anyone who wants to interact with me can call or sms on my phone. I still using the same number. And, anyone who doesn't have the phone number, you can e-mail me at naznadhira89@gmail.com. Sorry again.

24th

2010-12-05T16:38:00.005+08:00

Wishing you your happiest birthday yet

A birthday too special to ever forget.

So many wishes

So many smiles

Too many memories

Too few words

With one big Birthday

Happy Birthday.

It's your birthday and I can't be there

But I'll send you a special birthday wish and a little prayer

Have a happy birthday

I hope that all of your birthday wishes come true

May you have a great time today and find happiness in everything you do.

Happy Birthday from the heart

Cause that's where all great wishes start.

p/s Happy 24th birthday, 05122010.

Sila Maki.

2010-12-03T04:39:00.005+08:00

3rd Dec, Friday, 0526 a.m

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. The worst thing is, you are not feel the same way, well, you don't even care. But, I miss you. I miss you so bad and all I can do is reading all your text message and looking all our pictures together. I look at your most recent photos, see your smile and accidentally I dropped my tears and I was on the lips smiling. I miss you. I can't believe there's still tears for you every night in my sleep. Having you in my dreams, having us together. It is just a dream. I miss you. And never thought, remembering all your silly behavior, seeing all your favorite things, and sometimes I actually heard you nagged besides me and it made me smile, knowing you truly care. I miss you how you used to dine with me most every night, even you had a very tiring day. I miss you. Losing you is the biggest regrets for all my life and I wish I could turn back time, I could fix all broken things, I could fix myself from hurting you with the stupid and bad behavior. I miss you. Did I ever crossed your mind? I should have known the answer. I miss you and I miss everything about you.

This post have been written with tears and it never stop.

The Boy & His Bestfriend

2010-12-02T19:42:00.003+08:00

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

p/s : Re-blogged from Matahari Aisya klik sini :)

Entry yang membencikan.

2010-11-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

Haiiiii...

Caye nak ceritee pacal catu kenangan yang tibe-tibe jew caye teringat. Caye cukeee taww. Eeeuww belom ceritew lagi caye dah memaluu kucin tomey-tomey tiut-tiut. Hahaha :D

Camni taww cite diew,

" Catu ari tue kann, caye ade kelas. Cepatutnyew xdew taw, tibe-tibe jew ade classmate tu bitaw ade kelas pulaks. Mace tue caye dah janji dengan awak na pegi tengok wayang cecame. Caye btaw laa awak, awak kate, ' Takpee kitew pegi lepas awak abish kelas la'. Baik kan diee, eee cuke cangat. Abishh jew kelas kankan, die datang fac caye amik pashtuu kitowang terus jew g Cunway (Sunway) na gi tengok wayang tu. Mace tu kitowang tengok citew Record kowt. Tak hengat lah pulak tibew-tibew. Tatottttt taww citew tu. Manyak kali caye tergewdiks jewit-jewit dlm hall tu. Hahaha. Abish jew tengok wayang tue kannn, awak jalan-jalan dengan caye, awak pegang tangan caye, eeee cukeeee rase nak menari-nari kat tengah-tengah Cunway tue. Heheee :D Pashtu pashtu kannn awak katee na peluk caye tapi tapi mase tue beg caye becaw cangat, yelaa kan caye pegi kelas tadi kan awak. So, awak x dapat laa peluk caye. Awak asyik pegang tangan caye jewww caye pulak x abish-abish sengih-sengih macam owang gilew. Mace kitew on-the-way balik pun dalam kete awak mengadew-ngadew sajew na bagi caye cengih tak tentu hala lagi dgn still nak pegang tangan caye, awak kan bawak manual kan da cucah. Hehehehe pashtu-pashtu awak cayangggg caye untuk pertama kali. Lagilaaaahhh caye jadi gila kat citu. Heeeee caye pun cayannngggg awak balik. That day was a fairytale. caye bahagiaaaaaaaa :))))) "

Benci tak? Aku sendiri pun benci nak baca balik. Hahahaha :D

Congratulations!

2010-11-27T12:21:00.003+08:00

I am very proud of you my dear Nurrul Shahida klik sini

Thinking Of You

2010-11-26T22:35:00.005+08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into..
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

This song will never gets old.

Warkah.

2010-11-25T17:53:00.005+08:00

Selangkah pun tidak dia berundur mahupun ke depan. Sekelumit pun tidak hati dia menyimpan rasa benci pada cintanya. Sumpah atas nyawa, dia mengorbankan rasa indah pada cinta lain yang datang itu untuk kau membebaskan rasa khilaf. Untuk kau terus hidup tanpa serba salah yang mencengkam. Untuk kau menikmati segala rasa dunia.

Sekalipun jika cinta nya datang berganti, tiada yang setanding cinta yang kau beri pada dia. Tiada setanding juga cinta yang dia beri pada engkau. Saban hari dia menulis warkah cinta. Berharap supaya dia sendiri mampu memberi warkah itu. Berdoa supaya suatu hari engkau membacanya sambil tersenyum bahagia. Sayang, ianya mimpi.

Lalu dia buang kembali ke dasar hati. Muncul mentari pagi, bangun dengan tulisan warkah cinta yang baru. Akan mengharap sejuta kali setiap hari perkara sama. Dan bila tibanya dinihari, ianya mimpi, bukan sekali, tapi berkali-kali lagi.

Dia menanam rasa rindu yang dipendam. Ditanam dalam-dalam supaya tiada yang menoleh menghidu. Dan setiap kali rindu itu datang, dia akan meminta padaNya,

"Oh Tuhan, berilah dia kebahagiaan yang tiada bandingnya kerana dia cinta hatiku. Berilah dia segala kesenangan kerana dia duniaku. Permudahkan segala urusan hidup dan kerjayanya kerana dia kasihku. Jangan sekali pun biarkan dirinya menitis air mata walau setitik jika datang dugaan dan cubaan dan dari itu aku pinta kuatkan hati dan semangatnya kerana dia nyawaku. Murahkan rezeki dan selitkan setiap gelak tawa dan senyuman paling indah dalam dunia untuk dirinya kerana dia punca bahagia ku Ya Tuhan. Dan redhakan hati ku yang sarat dengan perasaan rindu. Amin.."

How I will not love you?

2010-11-20T13:56:00.002+08:00

Yes yes I can not to not love you Faizal Tahir ♥

Kau irama terindah

2010-11-15T05:02:00.002+08:00

Seakan mati separuh nyawa melihat cintanya dalam pelukan itu. Seluruh tubuhnya menggigil dan lututnya lemah. Dia masih berdiri di situ dan cintanya semakin jauh dan jauh pergi. Dan dia, masih setia berdiri di situ.

Puas sudah si dia merayu, meratap pada hatinya, jangan lagi setia. Setiap tindakan serong dilakukan untuk menerima dan selalunya akan berakhir dengan kegagalan yang sempurna. Jika dapatlah di bunuh rasa itu, berapa harga si dia sanggup membayar nilainya. Tetapi, akhirnya, si dia akan mengetawakan dirinya sendiri. Ketawakan dirinya yang sangat lemah. Ketawakan dirinya yang sangat buruk, hodoh dan jelik.

Kau bukalah topeng dirinya, kau akan lihat sakit yang tiada bandingnya. Sakit kerana cintanya akan kekal sebagai irama yang paling indah dalam hidup yang tersimpan di sudut paling dalam di hatinya.

Dan, percayalah dia akan membuktikannya.

Percayalah

2010-11-05T22:21:00.002+08:00

Betapa kuatnya hati menahan tangis. Betapa tegarnya wajah melampirkan kemanisan. Sayup hati membawa duka berulang kali. Balasan apakah yang sedang diterima sehingga begini sakitnya? Dosa apakah sedang ditanggung sehingga begini seksanya?

Tiada lagi tempat untuk menggantung harapan, memasang impian, mencipta angan-angan. Lemahnya hati seperti sudah begitu letih. Letih yang teramat.

Percayalah, dia bukan sekuat itu. Setabah yang mereka sedang lihat. Jangan disangka tawa nya tanda dia sedang gembira. Lagaknya dia sedang bahagia. Jika suatu hari dia melakukan kesilapan yang mungkin tiada sesiapa dapat menerima, percayalah dia sudah tak mampu. Percayalah..

Cause I know there's no life after you.

2010-10-03T13:24:00.002+08:00

A : Naz, kenapa makin kurus? Dah tak cantik. Eyebag macam dah ber-bag-bag. Diet ke?
B : Nak tau sebab ape?
A : Yes, why? Tell me.
B : Because, I kena save untuk duit minyak, tol, sewa rumah, duit parking. Tidur tak cukup. Hari-hari terperangkap dalam jam, otak pun dah jam. Kerja tanpa gaji, 6 hari seminggu. Cuti sehari. Cuti pun kena study. Dengan diri sendiri pun takde masa. Hahaha kesian kan?
A : Kenapa berulang dari Shah Alam? Why tak sewa dekat sana je?
B : My life is here. I mean, a lot of memories is here, dan I want to live with them.
A : What??
B : ............................

p/s : Sorry, tiba-tiba nak avoid soalan-soalan dari you Mr M.N.

.............

2010-10-02T20:35:00.005+08:00

" Yes. I really want, for God's sake, I want to see you happy. Even with someone else, who would love you better than me, who has always been the first, and I, always a second. My heart would hurt so much, if, though it just once, I see you fall apart. After seeing you really happy, then I will be focusing on the journey of my life, or, that's it, I'm gone. I love, and always, love you"

Please Forgive Me.

2010-10-02T16:52:00.002+08:00

I know it was my fault, let myself hurting you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. The fact is, I can't. I have my own vow, that I made it to myself. I can't betray my promise. I am sorry. It won't happen.

The club can't even handle me.

2010-09-28T18:35:00.002+08:00

Tempat yang bakal menurunkan berat badan aku sekaligus menjadikan aku lebih papan dan tiang lampu. Tempat ini juga bakal menjelaskan lagi wajah yang rupawan habis ni semakin pucat melesi, bibir kering menggelupas-lupas. Satu persatu urat di jari jemari membengkak tanda berada di satu wilayah dimana warga-warganya mempunyai kulit-kulit buaya dan kebal dengan suasana sejuk.

p/s : Mengeluh? Tak lah :)

Live. Love. Let Go.

2010-09-26T20:11:00.003+08:00

Aku masih mampu tangisi rinduku. Jangan kau pandang lagi aku. Teruskanlah hidupmu. Penuhkanlah dirimu dan hatimu dengan gelak riang tawa gembira. Aku akan tersenyum melihat kau bahagia. Janjiku padamu dahulu akan ku tunaikan. Janji yang ingin sekali melihat kau gembira. Tiada sedikit pun dosa yang terpalit padamu. Teruskan. Telah ku cuba segala-gala, rupanya masih tidak mampu. Cinta pada kekurangan dan kesalahanmu lebih besar dari kebaikanmu mengambil aku sebagai temanmu. Permintaanmu, maaf aku tidak mampu. Hidup akan aku teruskan, tetapi tidak hatiku. Biarlah hari-hariku bergelumang dengan kehitaman, jika itu akan membuat kau kan terus tersenyum melihat dunia. Cukuplah dari jauh aku melihat, mendengar, dan merasai kehadiranmu dalam setiap mimpi dan igauku, segala kesakitan rinduku akan tenang. Aku melepaskanmu bukan dengan niatku, tapi permintaan mu. Aku cinta kamu lebih dari yang kamu tahu.

Liver bagai disiat-siat.

2010-09-21T19:43:00.003+08:00

Jadikan mimpi ngeri sebagai kenyataan.

2010-09-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

Terima kasih, 4 hari berturut-turut menghabiskan duit. Dari Piranha bertukar Devil melihat gadis-gadis menikmati musim panas, bekerjasama dengan Alice dalam Resident-Evil 3D, lantas menari dengan gembira bersama The Pirates dalam Step Up. Haih.

Maaf, pengakuan itu saya hargai, segala kebaikan dan kemurahan hati akan diingat sampai mati. Tetapi, tali yang menjadi penghubung hanya akan kekal begini. Seperti dimana ia bermula, seperti itu jugalah ia akan terjadi. Jangan sekalipun harapan terbina tinggi. Saya hanya akan hancurkan ia berkali-kali, dan saya bukan sekejam ini.

Pergi, saya akan belajar hidup sendiri. Makna kosong makin sebati. Mimpi ngeri berulang kali, makin pasti. Ia jadi kenyataan kini. Tetapi, rasa hati tak pernah tipu malah benar sekali.

Adam Lambert, since I ni kekasih gelap you, apa kata you bagi I tiket free pergi tengok you live nanti? Ok thanks :)

It's not what I didn't feel, It's what I didn't show

2010-09-13T21:55:00.004+08:00

Raya, 4 hari di Pahang tak memberi kesan. Tiada rasa gembira, tiada ikhlasnya senyuman, tiada nada riang bergelak ketawa. Semua itu hanya luaran, khas untuk mereka yang tersayang. Ketupat, rendang, kuah kacang, lemang bukan lagi sesuatu yang tidak akan di tolak. Telefon juga bukan melekat di tangan, jemari bukan menekan-nekan membalas ucapan-ucapan raya.

Untuk kamu,

Tidak perlu untuk memaafkan mu. Bahagia yang kamu hadiahkan takkan dapat dicari ganti oleh sesiapa pun. Ini hukuman Tuhan untuk diri ini, kerana tidak menjaga anugerah terindah yang Dia beri. Kamu, anugerah terindah yang Tuhan beri, ya, kamu. Dan, aku akan memohon pada Nya setiap malam supaya Dia menjaga perasaan cinta untukmu ini, supaya bintang-bintang di langit masih menyinar, tanda cinta untukmu sentiasa ada, sayang.

Maaf, diri sudah dipunya, hati sudah dimiliki. Tiada ruang untuk mu. Ini bukan kata-kata alasan, tapi kenyataan. Meskipun kau berusaha, meski kau mencuba, jawapan masih sama. Hati ini sudah bersumpah untuk setia, hati ini hanya milik dia. Maaf dipinta, maaf.

Show everyone your poker face.

2010-09-08T22:55:00.003+08:00

Aidilfitri yang kosong buat si penulis. Maaf zahir batin.

Soooooo True!

2010-09-08T00:05:00.003+08:00

Entah

agaknya masa muda memang kaya dengan rasa,
rasa ingin mencuba segala selagi ada,
pendek akalnya, begitulah sepatutnya,
hingga tiba titik noktahnya

semua saat indah hilang,
bila masa akhir menjelang,
segala rasa akan kecundang,
lalu semuanya berulang.

Naz Nadhira likes Hasnol Jafaar's post :)

Feeling bad

2010-09-07T01:07:00.003+08:00

A : Kita tak pernah berpisah, kan?
B : Yes. Tak pernah.
A : Bila kita akan berpisah?
B : Time kau kahwin kang, kita berpisah la.
A : .........

I love you, still. But, there's a lot of things has changed. I'm so sorry. We can't be like we used to be. Honestly, my heart is broken, like hell. But, like I said, there's lot of things has changed.

I Love My Job.

2010-09-05T20:12:00.003+08:00

Yes, I do love my job. And I wish I could share it with you dear.

Oath

2010-09-01T13:20:00.003+08:00

" I've made a vow, to no one but you. I pledge my love to forever be true. So low that only you can hear. You will feel my love even we are apart. You will know that we are one, in heart "

Cantik ♥

2010-08-26T14:38:00.002+08:00

Nur Fathia

p/s : I adore you!!!!!!

19 August, 0809 a.m.

2010-08-19T08:09:00.001+08:00

" they say past is past, we need to move on to see the future..but how can me move on when our past is the only thing that we ever wanted in the future? "

Re-blogged from Anuar Bliss

Lyrics Quote

2010-08-10T19:02:00.005+08:00

"I remember when we kissed, I still feel it on my lips. The time that you danced with me, with no music playing. But I remember those simple things. I remember 'til I cry. But the one thing I'd wish I forget. The memory I wanna forget, is, goodbye"

Miley Cyrus ; Goodbye

Happy Ramadhan!

2010-08-10T11:08:00.004+08:00

Semoga sepanjang 30 hari berpuasa, cuaca di negeri utara sejuk-sejuk sahaja :)

Tukarlah segala bentuk, jenis mahupun sifat, kau tahu sendiri hatimu, kau tahu siapa dirimu, kau tahu apa hendakmu. Teruskanlah dengan berpura-pura gembira. Kau tahu kau tidak bahagia.

Tuesday, 1230 p.m

2010-08-03T12:18:00.003+08:00

The wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room. The stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count. The stars reassure tired me,they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me.

Don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me and comfort me, telling me to go to sleep.

Though it's hurt for my legs to walk. Though my tears blur my vision. I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get.

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart like those countless number of stars, forever.

My dream is coming. Though it is unusual that my one star is bright, it is very bright, even blinding, it comes down to my shoulder. Stop being so sad, it holds my hand as it touches me and gives me a warm hug.

Only for today, I won’t cry. Though my eyes fill with tears. I want to laugh like those stars. I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart. Like those countless number of stars, forever..

Saat Terindah

2010-07-20T09:32:00.000+08:00

Tidak lagi.

2010-07-07T22:29:00.003+08:00

Teringat Tweet dari Kakak Farhana. RT @farhanaahmad : taknak kawin. Satu masa dahulu, hati ini juga telah ditetapkan dengan perkara yang sama. Ya, post ini sudah siap sempurna ditaip dalam laptop yang telah enak dijamu oleh mana-mana penagih tidak bertamadun menculiknya. Post itu juga telah menjadi rahsia kerajaan diri setelah sekian lama. Tapi kepada yang pernah membaca, mungkin akan terkenang kembali.

Melihat mereka-mereka yang menempuh alam yang mungkin atau tak akan mungkin bahagia ini, sepanjang 20 tahun bernyawa, tiada antara satu pun yang sempurna. Manisnya sementara. Bulan madu yang indah cepat sahaja sampai ke hujungnya. Bukan hanya kata-kata kosong. Ia terjadi di depan mata. Semenjak dilahirkan ke dunia. Sehingga otak sedikit demi sedikit pandai berfikir. Mulanya dari situ, tidak percaya pada ikatan yang penuh pada janji, walaupun ada antaranya berdasarkan perasaan cinta yang tidak berbelah bahagi, kemudian akhirnya memakan diri. Bertahun-tahun akan menderita. Mana pergi janji-janji? Hilang tak bermakna.

Sebelum ini hidup berhubungan dengan seseorang, tak mungkin akan berfikir ia akan diakhiri dengan ikatan itu. Tak pernah. Bersikap jujur, maaf pada mereka. Tapi, suatu hari entah mana datangnya dia, membuka sedikit demi sedikit ruang yang memang terkunci berkarat. Dia memenangi hati, membuat diri terlupa pada janji sendiri. Kehidupan berubah. Sudah mula percaya pada perkara-perkara indah. Tiba-tiba pandai berfikiran positif. Segala perkara manis buat jiwa raga makin cinta. Makin tidak boleh kehilangan. Sedangkan pada mulanya dia hadir, sudah tetapkan hati 'Jangan perassan itu lebih dari perasaan dia'. Sihir pukau apakah yang diguna, tanpa disedari, dia telah menjadi segala-galanya. Mengangankan suatu hari akan menghias rumah bersama, menunggu dia pulang dari bekerja, menjaga pakaian dan makan minumnya, akan memasak sendiri setiap hidangan terutamanya, menemani dia menyiapkan hasil-hasil tulisannya, sentiasa menjaga masa tidur dan jaganya, sentiasa tersenyum untuk menyenangkan hati dia, berada disisi ketika susah senang melanda, melahirkan anak-anaknya, menjadi ibu dan isteri yang bangun awal pagi untuk menyiapkan sarapan untuk mereka yang tercinta, akan sentiasa belajar untuk menjadi sempurna dan disayangi pasangan dan cahaya mata. Ya, ini janji yang mengganti janji lama. Janji yang terpateri cantik untuk dia. Dan ini seharusnya menjadi rahsia. Rahsia hati pada janji itu, juga untuk janji lama. Bersyukur Tuhan bukakan mata dan menghadiahi diri insan yang begitu sempurna.

Rupanya dunia tidak memihak janji itu. Tuhan ambil kembali hadiah sempurna yang selama ini disangka akan kekal bersama. Silapnya menyangka segala-galanya akan berakhir dengan babak yang penuh rasa gembira. Beban kesalahan-kesalahan kecil dilakukan dahulu, punca ia ditarik kembali. Tidak cukup bijak untuk memenangi hati nya semula. Tidak cukup layak untuk kembali bersama. Kesannya, hidup sudah tak lagi bermakna. Janji-janji indah tak lagi berwarna. Hanya hitam dan gelap memenuhi dan diri seperti patung bernyawa. Kesan perpisahan ini seperti ingin mati.

Dia yang membuka hati, dia juga yang menutup kembali. Mungkin janji baru ini tidak sama jika dibandingkan dengan yang lama, janji yang pertama. Tapi, tajuknya masih sama. Mula tidak percaya pada ikatan kembali. Ikatan itu satu sumpah dari kedua-dua pihak. Jika hanya dari satu pihak, apa guna? Talak juga digugurkan, ataupun menyeksa dengan tidak melepaskan. Batin menjerit bertahun-tahun. Masih setia kerana cinta. Cinta yg tidak pernah berubah sejak sebelum bermulanya ikatan itu.

Apa yang membezakan janji baru, mungkin ingin buktikan pada diri sendiri ialah kekasih setia, sayang cintanya hanya pada dia, dia begitu sempurna untuk diri ini sehingga takkan ada yang akan menyaingi nya. Dan, mungkin juga diri takut. Takut dengan perpisahan sekali lagi. Perpisahan dari ikatan yang sah lagi melukakan. Tidak mampu rasanya untuk menanggung. Keputusan baru diambil. Tiada lagi ruang percaya pada ikatan yang indah itu.

Kita hanya merancang. Jika itu sudah takdirnya, siapa diri untuk melawan?

Kosong. Semuanya kosong.

2010-07-06T08:41:00.003+08:00

Rindu, menatap wajah itu. Rindu, ingin mengelus rambut itu. Rindu, melihat bibir itu senyum dan ketawa. Rindu, mendengar suaranya. Rindu, ingin mengucup bahunya ketika duduk bersama. Rindu, ingin lena di dadanya. Rindu, saat jari-jemari digenggam pertama kali, saat bibir itu menjadi pertengahan antara bicara hati, bicara yang penuh keikhlasan ingin bersama, sekali gus membuatkan hati ini terus berikrar untuk setia. Ya, rindu, dengan prihatinnya terhadap setiap perubahan sikap. Rindu, dengan setianya melayan setiap kerenah. Rindu, dengan usaha-usahanya untuk memastikan hati ini gembira. Rindu, ingin menyanyi bersama. Rindu, ingin menukar setiap siaran radio. Rindu, serindu-rindunya, dengan setiap perlakuan yang dinamakan cinta itu bersatu bersama rindu. Rindu, dengan setiap pujian yang sentiasa membuahkan senyuman. Rindu, dengan setiap cubaannya untuk menghubungi walaupun jauh beribu-ribu batu, juga kerana rindu. Rindu, dengan setiap kata-kata semangat yang diberikan. Rindu sangat rindu, kerana budinya membantu di kala diri dalam kesusahan. Rindu, sentiasa cuba untuk menjaga hati. Rindu, ingin sering bertukar telefon bersama. Rindu, dengan kata-kata manisnya berkata 'Get well soon sayang' ketika diri jatuh sakit. Rindu, dia berada di sisi ketika diri menangis semahu-mahu, dan sekali lagi menyejukkan hati. Rindu, ketika bibir ini lancar mengadu setiap perkara dan bibir itu akan menyokong dan sentiasa menyebelahi. Rindu, bila hatinya dirundung perasaan bersalah tidak dapat hadir ketika diri memerlukan. Rindu, dengan setiap penghargaan yang diberikan atas cinta yang tidak pernah berbelah bahagi. Rindu, dengan setiap kata-kata sayang, cinta, rindu, peluk cium yang diberikan setiap malam. Rindu, ingin menyatakan setiap perasaan ini kepadanya. Tolonglah, benarkan hati nya tahu, hati ini sangat takut, suatu hari hati nya akan lupa. Lupa pada cintanya. Lupa pada rindunya. Lupa pada kenangan nya. Lupa pada keikhlasan dan kejujuran nya. Lupa, pada dirinya. Sedangkan hati disini, sentiasa dibayangi igauan. Igauan kenangan-kenangan cintanya. Sehingga setiap malam lenanya terganggu akibat mimpi-mimpi atas salah silap, kelalaian, dan penyesalan kerana tidak menjaga hati yang sempurna itu dan bila hati itu pergi, bila hati ini ditinggalkan sunyi sepi, semua mimpi indah tak bermakna lagi. Sehinggalah 1 malam, Tuhan telah mengizinkan 2 pasang mata itu bertaut kembali setelah sekian lama. Pedihnya, pandangan itu kosong. Seperti kosongnya hati, kosongnya hidup. Jiwa menjerit-jerit, ingin menerpa dan mendakap tubuh itu. Biar air mata kerinduan itu basah di dalam pelukannya. Tetapi, mulut terkunci, pandangan di alihkan, kaki menjadi kaku, tangan membeku. Hanya jiwa berkata-kata, 2 hati yang pernah bersatu itu, akhirnya bertemu seperti 2 hati yang tidak pernah sekalipun bercantum, asingnya pandangan itu seperti 2 hati itu tidak pernah berjanji untuk hidup bersama. Pertemuan itu hanya sekitar beberapa saat, tetapi cukup untuk menambahkan lagi perasaan rindu itu. Rindu yang tiada ubat. Rindu yang tiada penawar. Hanya akan kekal bersemadi dalam diri ini sehingga usia tamat.

2108, Saturday

2010-07-03T21:03:00.002+08:00

Bila cinta kini tak lagi bermakna

Yang ku rasa kini hanyalah nestapa

Di tinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan, manisnya janjimu

Dan ku sambut itu, dengan segenap hatiku

Bila engkau pergi tinggalkan ku

Hilangnya cintamu, menusuk hatiku

Hingga ku memilih cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu merobek jantungku

Hingga ku terjatuh dalam harapan

LBS original soundtrack.

In love

2010-07-03T00:57:00.002+08:00

Aku dah jatuh cinta sangat-sangat pada kau. Bila kau nak jatuh cinta sangat-sangat pada aku pula?

Re-blogged From MomoMoans :)

2010-07-01T18:30:00.004+08:00

Sorry sebab curik Cik Honeymomoe :)

Hero!

2010-07-01T13:30:00.001+08:00

:)

2010-06-30T14:20:00.005+08:00

Before

After :)

Shahida said, '' Kenapa 3 jari je?? Kau pengantin lelaki kan?? Da agak dahh!''

Honey! I love you more!

0155, Tuesday morning.

2010-06-29T01:39:00.002+08:00

No matter how disgusting you look at me, no matter how dirty myself to you for loving you, no matter how much you hate for seeing me, all this thing will not change my love for you. Never ever. I promise that I will preserve this feeling even though I have to love you from a distance and I don't expect anything in return. If one day I will belong to someone else, I just need you to know the most beautiful and wonderful love is only when I am together with you. This all to prove that I love you sincerely from my heart and my soul. You'll feel it if my love is true. Forgive me. I miss you.

Free-time yang melampau.

2010-06-16T15:13:00.010+08:00

Heyyyy! Semalam terjumpa satu laman web game percuma dimana mereka menyediakan satu games yang sebijik sejibun lah dengan patung-patung kertas yang kita (girls only!) sibuk main2 dulu masa kecik-kecik,kan? Alaa yang kita mem-busy-kan diri memakaikan anak-anak patung kertas tu cantik-cantik dengan baju, handbag, topi, skarf bagai tu kan. Ingat lagi tak? :P

Well, disebabkan ini game online so dia dah terbanyak advance dah. Dulu-dulu punya patung kertas kita tu limited kat baju-baju dan mungkin sedikit aksesori. Tapi, yang ni kita boleh make-over diorang habis-habisan lah, siap make-up tu, ko nak letak eyeliner panjang sedepa, blusher merah menyala, lipstick macam-macam warna ko letaklah suka hati ko nyah!

Pelbagai jenis games ade selain dress-up muka-muka diorang ni, tapi untuk I yang sememangnya bukanlah penggemar permainan-permainan online ini, dress-up ni jelah penarik hati. Tambahan lagi dengan masa terluang yang dah tak tau nak dibazirkan celah mana lagi. Jadi, di bawah ni I ade upload beberapa gambar hasil sentuhan dari jari-jemari I gitu, kan. Haha cakap pun dah macam maknyah sebab dari semalam I busy mendandan minah-minah ni ha.

Oops, para-para so-called-peminat Taylor Swift ataupun Selena Gomez, I minta maafla I dah burukkan lagi muka diorang yang sememangnya buruk tu. Wahahaha SORRY YE :D

p/s : click to enlarge the picture :)

Well, malam ni game Spain. Go Go David Villa my hero!

You.

2010-06-15T15:00:00.003+08:00

I should put myself in your place, and now I understand how difficult your career. Also, I started to understand little by little decisions you made by leaving me. I am sorry, you should know me better, you should know how much I love you and I am willing to face them with you. But, you have rejected me. And I know, time will determine everything

Rabu, 0515 am.

2010-06-09T11:52:00.002+08:00

Hai awak,

How are you? I miss you. Eh, awak nak tau, saya ade handphone baru tau, takdelah baru sangat, dah sebulan lebih dah saya beli. Saya ingat nak tunjuk kat awak, tapi macam mana? Banyak sangat saya nak kongsi dan cerita, tp pada siapa?

Awak, saya dah 3 hari puasa sunat (include puasa ganti sekali) hehe :P Awak still ingat tak masa saya berpuasa untuk awak? Masa awak di ***********? Ohh mungkin awak dah lupa. Masa tu awak akan marah saya kalau saya risaukan awak. Jadi, saya berpuasa untuk hilangkan segala risau saya. J

Awak nak tau kenapa saya puasa? Saya duduk rumah asyik makan je awak. Time org tak makan pun saya makan. Huhu so saya rasa saya dah overdose makanan, jd saya berpuasalah.

Awak, sekarang saya dah faham. Penderitaan yang awak alami dulu kini saya pula merasainya. Tapi kan, saya rasa lebih baik saya yg tanggung dari awak. Kan saya pernah janji, saya takkan bg awak kecewa lagi. Awak ingat saya sanggup untuk melihat awak kecewa lagi sekali? Saya bersama dengan awak bukan untuk bagi awak merasa kecewa lagi sekali. Melihat awak gembira, jadi saya lebih yakin awak akan baik-baik sahaja tanpa saya kan?

Demi Allah saya nak tengok awak gembira J

Dan, saya memang deserve pun kena macam ni. Dalam banyak2 usaha saya untuk buat awak bahagia, saya juga banyak melakukan kesilapan. Saya pun banyak menipu awak selama ni. Saya banyak buat awak rasa bosan dan sakit hati dengan perangai saya, kan? So kumpul semua kesilapan saya, memang padanlah muka saya bila dibalas begini. Jadi bukan salah awak. Saya benci pada diri saya sendiri.

Awak, awak ni sweeeeetttt sangat. Sentiasa menceriakan hari2 saya. Saya sukeeee sgt dengar awak membebel, macam orang tua awak tau tak? Macam mana saya nak dapat yang terbaik, kalau saya dah lepaskan perkara yang paling indah terjadi ni? Tak pernah seumur hidup saya, seseorang mengatakan saya ni dunianya, dan tak pernah lagi orang mengatakan tidak boleh hidup tanpa saya, dan tak pernah lagi seseorang sanggup buat apa sahaja untuk saya, itulah penghargaan yg paling tinggi pernah saya dapat daripada awak.

Awak tahu perasaan saya takkan pernah berubah. Hari2 saya berperang dengan diri saya sendiri.

Saya tahu, depan atau belakang saya ramai sangat yang ketawakan kisah saya. Tapi, saya selalu berlagak saya ok, takkan rasa ape2lah. Boleh sama2 gelakkan lagi. Dalam pada itu, Tuhan sahaja yang tahu.

Eh, tak. Saya tak cuba minta simpati sesiapa pun. Saya cuma nak cakap dengan awak je. Saya tak berdayalah nak baca balik semua mesej2 awak, mahupun melihat kembali gambar2 awak, nanti gila saya tau. Hahaha :D

Ok, jaga diri baik2 tau. Lain kali saya menulis kat awak lagi. Saya tahu awak tak paham bahasa melayu, tapi takpelah nanti bila2 saya translate kat awak. Love you always Adam Lambert J

HAVE HEART !!

2010-06-05T22:36:00.011+08:00

I cannot even go on to describe how bad I feel about this massacre it brings tears to my eyes T_T

Its outrageous to see how our muslim brothers & sisters are suffering at the hands of Israel !!!

Where are the Muslims and Arabs world leaders how can they leave such children and women be slaughtered?

The time has come to react with action not with words !

"Grace to Allah, whose help we seek, whose forgiveness we beseech, whose guidance we implore and on whom we rely"

May ALLAH give them strength !!!

MELTING

2010-05-31T21:58:00.003+08:00

OMG He is so CUTEEEEEEE. I can't help myself from falling in LOVE with YOU!

I would fly you to the moon and back if you’ll be,

if you’ll be my baby.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Talking To Myself

2010-05-31T20:34:00.004+08:00

Letting go, even if it hurts, doesn't mean you have to let go of everything. You just have to let go of the person and your feelings for her/him but the memories will always be there whether it's good or bad. Because everytime you remember those memories, it will always put a smile into your heart. And be glad that once in your life this person made you happy and put colors into your life even if it's just for a while.

Ouhh it is really makes me cry :(