Prayer.
Has anyone thought, our prayers are not answered God's will?
Yes, I have. I pray every time no matter after the prayer, before sleep, no matter wherever I will pray to the Lord what I want. And if I too want something I do solat hajat and fasts only because of the prayer, and also because of God. That of course.
Over the past few weeks, I started thinking about my prayers I ask every time whether God is listening? Would God grant my prayers? I began to feel very low self-esteem to see myself-full of sin, do I qualify? And, sometimes I also just remember to pray when I am afflicted with pain. Do I qualify, who always forget God when happy, just looking for Him when I am in sorrow? God will remember us l, if we forget him?
And this feeling of fear I had was so excruciating that I rely on God for what I want. And I voiced this question to my mother, and my mother said if I thought so, so I had to look down on the power of God. I was speechless.
Perhaps I am too afraid of the fate of what has been determined by God. Yes, we must accept the terms I have been given. But, I believe the effort is to pray. As we always hear and see "God does not change the fate of a community, if they themselves do not want to change it".
I have not stopped praying to God. Besides I have to work on it, I am also very confident that God heard my prayers and will grant my wish; not about fast or slow. And, when I look around, thank God, many are also my prayer is that God has answered. Family, friends and for me as well.
Honestly, every prayer I include his name. What else if not pray for our destiny. And, I'm very grateful so grateful though our fate has not been determined, all the success, safety, happiness, which I wanted for him was also given little by little, by God. For example, he was assigned to work abroad, a very dangerous place, I was too worried and I pray for his safety to tears, thank God he returned safely. There are a number of my prayers for him the Lord have granted. And thanks to the prayers of his mother and his friends as well. Alhamdulillah.
All this made me begin to realize, God's power was unrivaled. I am confident that God will answer my prayer, and I will continue to pray with patience until the end of my life, God willing.
